Om, shanti shanti shanti

Had a 12-hour workday today, approximately.

Did not find a lot of opportunities to “look” for Enlightenment.

I performed a piece I was less prepared for than I like to be, and pulled it off.

I refrained from ranting/criticizing when someone I work with made her usual mistakes, despite extra efforts by a few of us to make mistakes less likely.

I can report that despite all of the hours of work and stress of underprepared performance and typical work frustrations, I feel quite lucky, and am generally happy with my lot.

Maybe I’m finding it, even when I’m not looking.

One can hope, I suppose.

There was an Ani line I’m particularly fond of in a song I heard as I was driving in for my third professional task of the day:

I weave each one of my songs out of glass
so you can see me inside of them,
I suppose you could just leave an image of me
in the background, I guess, and
watch your own impression superimposed.

And I thought about how much of what we do, feel, see, think is impacted by so much of what we have done, felt, seen, thought in the past; and how we project those thoughts, feelings, images upon those around us whom we love and care about. A good friend called as I drove home, congratulating me on my performance, and inviting me out for a drink and a chat. I declined, as I have been gone from home for so many days, but I am so grateful for her, my friends, my family, my life.

As Martha would say, It’s all good.



2 thoughts on “Om, shanti shanti shanti

  1. Pingback: what I seek | A Day in the Life of Really Not a Guru

  2. Sounds like you’ve done well. I can imagine “anyone” can find inner peace by themselves at the top of a mountain, but getting the same feeling in the middle of a real world of physical tiredness, performance stress, and incompetent colleagues would be somewhat more difficult.

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